shes my lil go go dancer..

without ever letting go i knew you’d gone astray..

woah the past 3 days have been so awesome!!

i worked til 6am on friday morning, slept for about 4 hours, and went to hand in the project. this time, we didnt have to print, so i thought id have no
last-minute fuckups. but alas, i was wrong. my format was fucked up, and for some reason my fonts didnt want to show, even though id converted to paths! arg.. so i spent about 2hrs working on it, then went to macd's with vanja..

i didnt end up having a nap, but went out with teags, eva, peter and rheese to carfax, where i got rather drunk. AKING were so awesome though.. and of course THE SLASHDOGS..

saturday morning, i was running around, trying to exchange dollars with vanja.. that didnt happen, but after that i went home, and stella was already here.. we went to olive lounge for a bit and then red room with rheese.. went to bed relatively early (1AM)..

then yesterday, was the almighty SEASONS WITHER, but before that, stella and i had lunch with my family because it was our easter.. teagan picked us up and we set off to the dome for the party.. much fun ensued:

jumping the que. pink armbands. carbar. sitting outside. trying to find out which band was playing where. headbanging. going crazy with friends in the pit. BEER!! hotdogs. friends. laughter. fun. car missions for more carbar. constant attempts to locate ALL my friends. being in photos.

wow, it was so much fun! then stella and teags slept here and this morning we all just hungout..

i cant eat, i cant sleep.. i cant sleep, i cant dream..

yes, its 2am and im still up.. but i will be up til 6am (hopefully only till then)

i have barely eaten today, but at least i had a 4hr powernap! and i found some coca-cola so im good..

like drinking poison, like eating glass..

i spent the whole of today designing.. i slept 3hrs last night and im spent.. i have so much more to do before im finished :(

christelle is now coming on saturday, rather than tomorrow, because tomorrow is going to be my sleeping day (after i hand in)
im very very cranky..

i need to refuel (ie: a powernap)

this vinyl toy is awesome:

im an addict for dramatics, i confuse the two for love..

today has been most interesting.. but its not for sharing :)

i wokeup at 10, realised the power had just gone off, and went off to bed, wokeup at 2.. then i worked like a mofo on my designs *sigh*.. im struggling with vega and hating third year..

buuut on a positive note..
i had to post this:

'hey you pycho bitch,,, i have to tell you that if u ever change im gonna kill you..
you fucking gorgeous an make me laugh.. never change man cos its people like u that hit a soft spot in my stone heart,,

luv u tina..
xxx'

sent to me by an awesome old friend!

makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside..

my status on facebook has been 'tina thinks you (and your penis) should grow up'.. which i think is fitting, given the circumstances.. and it IS the truth, so yeah..

my friends look out for me like family..

this is just a cheesy post dedicated to all my amazing friends.. i think im the luckiest person to have such awesome caring friends!

through all the good and the bad, they have all stuck with me! and i love you guys for it..

vanja - thank you so much for all your infinite wisdom on life about boys hahaha.. and thanks for all the sushi :P

jenna - thank you for always making me laugh with your funny smses :P

jaz - thank you for taking me out when i was down, and for mocking me all the time and making me laugh and for being an amazing friend in general, and listening to my emo-ness..

nick - thank you for being so caring and saying that you love your pumpking (that would be me)

jess&indi - thank you for driving me and having a good time with me AND FOR TEACHING ME THAT IM WORTH MORE THAN THAT..

justin - thak you for the late night calls/sms and your rational advice..

kyle - the other day meant everything to me. thank you for always listening to me and being such a cool friend/ big brother.

lolly - thank you for making me laugh, ripping me off and being my wife

max - thank you for your infinite friendship, no matter what

kim - thank you for letting me bitch, and telling me i deserve better and for tagging me as the praying mantis :P

teags - thank you for being so understanding and being 'a kindered spirit'

stella - thank you for being my bestest friend, feeding me beer, making me laugh and always showing me a good time. i love you to bits

and last, but most importantly - my sister, eva, who is my everything. thank you for being the best person in my life for the past 23 years - i will never forget how amazing growing up with you has been, and i cannot wait to live with you again.. you are my everything! i love you forever, little sis!

come on and hit me with your best shot..

last night was.. really eventful.. simmy came over here and we got ready and gossiped like girls do.. then we left for crazy 88.. first, we took the wrong offramp.. but we managed.. then, i skipped a red robot (no, i wasnt drunk, i was just not paying attention..) but whit MY luck, there were pigs right by that robot.. i was scared that they will chase me, so we pulled into a lil street and drove around for a bit.. they didnt find us.. then, we are just off OXFORD RD, into 11TH, and we see a hooked.. she was at the stop street, and we had to stop, and she started leaning towards us.. it was madness.. FINALLY we found the place..

much fun was had, once inside - the night consisted of coca-cola, cigarettes, friends, deep talks about life, and dancing my heart out to Peter.. the desmonds rocked.. and jaz managed to step on my foot.. which bruised immediately! but its ok, battle wounds rock!


van, me, sim and candi.. although this post is just about sim&i

I saw the moon divorce the sky tonight..

last night was rocking! i just rolled out of bed..

vanja and kyle came to pick me up and we met up with lisa and went to shananigans (havent been to that place in AGES).. then we went off to olive lounge, and met up with everyone there.. it was extra-special cos jes and indie and knuckles were there PLUS i saw eben AND ALEX!! at some point, we went to carbar in chris' car - tarryn, knuckles, vanja, lisa and i.. eish.. we had vanjas apple shot thingies.. we had to finish them.. it was BAD!! then we came back in and danced like mofos!

i had way too much fun!

i love the 80s:

you best be ware - try and test me if you dare!

im in a good mood today :)

all is fine in the land of tina.. i didnt go to college because i hated my ideas.. been working on em today and am liking my idea now :) all i want is coke and chocolate.. im debating going to get some.. am i not too lazy though?

this picture is epic:

what if i told you, that you're a stupid whore..

today was quick.. just a lecture, and then hung out with the kids for a bit.. then kyle and i decided to go to old parks for beer. wow i havent been to that place in like 2 months! so, we drank our beer, smoked our cigarettes and talked loads. i love kyle. and i love nick, jaz and vanja. really, i have the best friends in the world. hands down!

iv always loved this picture..

for our means secure us and our defects prove our worth..

work work work. really, it never ends. i had fun yesterday afternoon, watched CROSSING POINT in studio. then i did work. because i have no life, vega has stolen it. tonight perhaps doors or movies.. or something.. but right now, more work.

im dying for some sleep, but i cant afford to sleep cos i dont have time. caffeine and nicotine are pulsating through my veins. and i feel creative! thats good at least..

its been so awesome driving with vanja to college these past 2 days :)

other than that, its amazing how i have gotten programming my brain down to an art. its taken many years and many sour lessons to get me this way. but im happy with my coldness.. rather that then being hurt 24/7.. this project i have to do for creative development will help further, no doubt?

ok.. im just rambling on. its the lack of sleep..

THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY:

if I live to see you again
i'll take out my eyes
with this I have no way, and in consequence want no sight
i've tried my hardest to forget every connection
always being the blind villain

my end meets the old curse of death

the last courtesy I give
get the horses for your mistress
there is a cliff, with sky high peaks
make your way to the very brim of it
stop it from every showing
repair the misery

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine

with robbers hands, cunning and false
label him a thief, bring him before us
bind fast his corky arms
filthy traitor!

hang him instantly
pluck out his eyes
rip the haunting smirk from his face
may heaven help him, but only through its plagues
for our means secure us
for our means secure us and our defects prove our worth.

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine
we live in fear and danger of them
there delicate cheeks will turn to rotting flesh
one day women will all become monsters

plan B is ready to be sprung into action..

my eyes are shut for now it seems the only way that i can cope..

i have been having weird dreams about going home.. of my gran's town, of my sister's place.. wow, i had the best childhood. and to think i 'turned out like this' (pierced, tatooed and cynical).. i make my mother proud (not)..

yes, i know i have been bitching for ages that i wanna get outta here, and i really do.. i cant wait.. i hate this goddamn place, i feel like a prisoner.. all i see is poverty, crime, racism, and loadshedding.. i feel like im at the edge of the world.. i hate this place. its stupid, and im so sick of this crime and all these people..

i have recently realised that my mother and i will never be close, she will never accept me. and im done trying to be who she wants me to be.. its sad, iv cried about it, iv spend countless hours trying to supress who i am, for her.. but at the end of the day, really, its my life.. i cannot sit and think about how she will take my next tattoo or what i choose to do with my time..

one day women will all become monsters

so whoop-dee-do, im sick again! today is the first day iv felt a lil better, and i desperately wanna go out, even for a quick coffee cos iv been at home for the past 3 days, sleeping!

i keep dreaming about going home.. SO MUCH!! i need to go back..

if I live to see you again
i'll take out my eyes
with this I have no way, and in consequence want no sight
i've tried my hardest to forget every connection
always being the blind villain

my end meets the old curse of death

the last courtesy I give
get the horses for your mistress
there is a cliff, with sky high peaks
make your way to the very brim of it
stop it from every showing
repair the misery

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine

with robbers hands, cunning and false
label him a thief, bring him before us
bind fast his corky arms
filthy traitor!

hang him instantly
pluck out his eyes
rip the haunting smirk from his face
may heaven help him, but only through its plagues
for our means secure us
for our means secure us and our defects prove our worth.

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine
we live in fear and danger of them
there delicate cheeks will turn to rotting flesh
one day women will all become monsters

i am finally free..

i have had the most amazing 6 days!

thursday evening, vanja and i went to olive lounge..

friday we went to desmond and the tutus, and then to the suicide kings' album launch..

saturday we went to a wedding and then to cool runnings, and then to red room..

sunday i went to movies with a special someone..

monday, we went to nems house to watch a serbian movie..

and last night, we were all partied out, so we went for dinner at northgate :)