you took me home, i drank too much, cos of you my liver's turned to dust..

this weekend was crazy! i spent the whole of friday dealing with the bank and the DMV!! then, i proceeded to party til 6am, sleep a bit and then move house.. today iv been at vega since 10, and i just came home..

i think i need a holiday again..

love is in the air, bitches!!

I've got the gift of one liners, and you've got the curse of curves..

this week has been utterly exhausting, and today has been the only day where i got to go home at 2pm.. after which, i proceeded to have a 'quick' nap, which ended up being 4hrs, so iv done nothing :(

*sigh*

we're moving house and im expected to help.. right in the middle of campaigns??

How does it feel to be on the recieving end of this one?

another day at vega, more torture.. i spent the day here yesterday - 9am til 8pm.. but thats campaigns for you. today we have strat review, and i just pray that we move onto the next stage, so we can actually have the afternoon off :(

but this makes me happy and inspired.. tara mcphersons one is the first one..

soet slaap sonder sonde vanaand..

im officially done with my essay. it took me two hours to read my notes and two hours to write it. and im over it. i just wanna pass, i dont care for anything else.

im tired and cranky and i have a long day ahead of me doing strat tomorrow..

if love is a labour, i'll slave to the end..

With the touch of your hand, I am whole again..

the title of this entry would've been corny if it wasnt ALL THAT REMAINS..

iv had a veryyy hectic week of campaigns. no sleep, or little sleep. and i managed to squeeze some beers in there on thurs eve (olive lounge) and friday (bowls).. oh, and some rather interesting escapades at DESMONDS on friday eve.. saturday i went to a shot-gun wedding.. it was actually quite sweet.. i managed to dance a bit as well..

today its time for some essay writing.. im freaking out. we have strat review for campaigns for tuesday and this essay for tomorrow, wtf?? i cannot manage..

when you were young..

i think this was one of the most rocking weekends iv had this year..

friday, stella came over at like 9.30am, we went to print (which turned out SO well), handed in my work and went for beer at old parks with lolly.. eventually, van and kyle joined. after that, we went home and cleaned the house and opened a biiig bottle of champagne for christelle's CROSSING POINT foto, which was published in THE MAIL & GUARDIAN.. then damien picked us up at 8.30 and we set off to ROCK BAR to party it up. MUUUUCCCCHHHHH fun was had, an appearantly, stella has never seen me that drunk..

on saturday morning, stella left and i went to get my mom from the airport. i was beyond hanging.. urg. in the afternoon i went to bowls, and then to dal's party, WHICH ROCKED THE CASBAH (well, the COCO BONGO).. it was awesome..

ROCK BAR FRIDAY:

Did somebody take your tongue?

i am finished with my design!! yes, true story..

and im ALMOST (ok, not really) finished with my creative.. good news, the crit con essay has been extended to 25th..

tomorrow, i will party like a madman..

my mom comes back on saturday!

With the worries that I'd give her in she told the worst of me
With my wanting just to hold your neck in my arms and feel me squeeze.
No I'm not going to give you what you want so if you please
The sin that shapes your voice carries my ears this new disease

Did somebody take your tongue?
In worries of the words that you couldn't say (that you couldn't say) saved them from
But I don't want to sleep without
so I bid to you goodnight,
Tonight, sleep tight, my love

The anxious through the calming storm you'll sit as you pray for rain
I'll touch it if you ask me to but how is up to you
No I'm not going to let you get up if you struggle willingly
I'll savor all your form to show you how and where i bleed

With all the words you say...you'll save

You were so well behaved
As you watched and made your way
A kiss for you engraved
You shift and stretch your legs
You were so well behaved
You were so well...
Who taught these tricks that make
...you were so well behaved

If the world stops turning girl you better not stop when I say
and there aint nothing you could do to cut me, cut me down
If the ground starts parting through the silence and the walk of the dead
Everything here dies alone...

But I'm not quite sure what you've been told
On labor day, Ooh, I'm not starting with you but the faint of heart while worries wait
But I'm not quite sure what this unfolds
On labor day, Ooh, I'm not starting with you but the faint of heart.

(With all the words you say)
Did somebody take your tongue?
In worries of the words that you couldn't say that you couldn't say...saved them from
(With all the words you say)
But I don't want to sleep without
so I bid to you goodnight tonight, sleep tight, my love. 

whatever i say is royal ocean..

for anyone who actually reads my blog, the previous post is from earlier today..

the title of this post comes from a DANCE GAVIN DANCE song, which iv had in my head for the past 2 hours.. so, i found out that my essay and mini project are due on monday.. that only leaves my design, which is almost done, and my creative, which i havent even started..

i think i might actually manage. i also think, that i might actually get some sleep tonight/ this morning..

im tired and im fucking cranky..

and this rocks:

take these misunderstandings..

i am now officially hyperventilating about these briefs.. i have my design one, which is 75% done (minus printing), an essay which i havent even started, another mini project, and worst of all - my creative development which we were meant to have started beginning of the year. *dies*

im considering missing a deadline or 2, but i really dont wanna have % taken off.. il try finish everything..

other than that, im much much better.. and im REALLY looking forward to friday with my stella, beer and CROSSING POINT!!

luister julle nie?

aye im feeling a bit better today.. actually A LOT better.. its weird, i felt like death for the past 2 days, and today all of a sudden i feel better..

i am now resuming work on vega shit i need to hand in on friday. as in, no sleep til then. or minimal sleep. what else is new?

watched HANCOCK with vanja today and had lunch and stuff.. was super nice, i love my vanja..

im hoping my mom will be back on saturday, but il only know for sure after tuesday :(
christelle is coming here on friday, brandon asked her to shoot CROSSING POINT's cd launch at THE ROCK BAR, so we are going there and shes sleeping over, im really excited!

then, next sunday, i cant hangout with vanja, cos she has a project due on the monday.. but, we have decided that the whole of next week, we're gonna party like rock stars, because its only the first week of campaigns, and after that we're gonna have to never have lives again cos its gonna be hectic..

this is fucking cool:

in the old times, it was not a crime..

im sick sick sick, i have only been able to puke today. thats it. i havent even been able to get out of bed. im sure i stink. but its ok, cos i cant smell it. hahahahha. so, i just found out that theres a bulgarian bar in new york and woah thats fucking awesome! represent! their menu only has bulgarian cusine, thats is heaven! http://www.mehanata.com/ - --> check it out. i found it by chance, while i was looking up stuff on evgeni/eugene - lead singer from GOGOL BORDELLO. which is SO the best band in the world. anyways, he DJs there! every thursday. i think new yorkians (?) are way too lucky..

.. and perhaps im way too high on medicine right now..

How do you want me to live with it?

OF COURE i am not going to oppikoppi cos that would just have been too good to be true. id need like a grand for entrance (400 bucks!!), booze, food and petrol. and that is an insane amount of money, especially now that im beyond broke.. also, i have 4 projects due next friday, and going to a festival and having fun would be just ridiculous!

in other news, i am beyond sick of stressing about where i am going to live, and when i am going to lose my car. all i do is run around to meetings with lawyers. man, i wish i could rob a bank - i totally wouldnt even feel guilty cos banks are way too rich - il be like a modern day Robin Hood! I mean, the bank charges me like R10 per mini-statement!! good think i dont have ANY money in my account then, i guess?

i have 110euros left from greece, which i have hidden from myself, and am keeping for my portfolio. no, it wont be enough, but at least its SOME money towards it.

so, last night, my dad and i were talking, and we are leaving south africa as soon as i graduate. as in, the next day. as in, ASAP. im kinda glad that everything became super-shit this year, it really helps justify my hate for this country. no one overseas understands how shit and dangerous it is here! ever since iv been back, i havent even wanted to go out anywhere - iv gone out like twice in 2 weeks! (excluding movies) and the first time, i got lost IN TOWN. thats right, kids, its a miracle im still alive!

but yeah, so we are gonna escape to bulgaria, because, yes, its eastern european, but its much better than here, if you look at it practically. id even clean toilets like the gypseys, rather than stay here!

ok, enough bitching.

i have no inspiration for college work, but my creative development project is REALLY kickass.

also, i started feeling really sick yesterday morning, i have the flu now. bah. what can you do eh?

my mom will hopefully be back next saturday, which would be perfect, as i hand in on friday, and i can spend the whole ssaturday with her! i really really miss her. she says shes sick of bulgaria, but i secretly totally envy her! i cannot wait - in less than 6 months, il be back with my little sister!!

all this talk about immigrating - violet's parents are off to join her in London, so im excited to go for coffee with her mom beforehand..

oh, and im not going to WITCHFEST anymore.. but theres some stuff to look forward to, namely the week before my birthday:

- FOKOFPOLISIEKAR are doing a tour in jozi. il be seeing em live for the first time in exactly 2 years!
11 September - Back2Basix, Westdene
12 September - Doors Nightclub, Edenvale
il probably go to the doors one, and get bruises from the pit! been a while!

- UNDEROATH (one of my top 4 favourite bands. EVER) IN SOUTH AFRICA:
Friday 26 September: Bell's Sundowner (Alberton) with Unlisted, Crossingpoint, Straatligkinders, New Altum, and two local support acts chosen from the Support Search Show.

Saturday 27 September:
The Rustic Theatre on Main, Lonehill, Gauteng with The Narrow, Straatligkinders, Crossingpoint, New Altum and more to be announced.

all this will cost me R100 for fokof, and R280 per show for underoath, but stella might by me 1 of the tickets!
this is the only cash i will be spending on my self this year..

ok, im off to carry on with my design, and stuff myself with more flue pills..

PS - heres something else - you hurt me more than any boy ever has, and although im not a bitch, all i every think about when i see you, is REVENGE. i will never stop wanting to make you bleed the way i bled when you got up and left me in cold blood..




(this is only make believe)

are you hoping for a miracle?

so i am back and not happy about it..

my life now consists of:

- illustrations for design
- creative development brief
- signing papers at lawyers' offices
- trying not to throw up
- barely eating
- coffee and cigarettes