its everything worth fighting for..

im sick of being miserable, so im taking life's lemons, making lemonade and selling it for profit..

im so busy with college stuff, but tonight im gonna go party for a bit..

this revolution will not be televised

so, its done - im not going on holiday.

i might as well go fucking die somewhere..

this captain goes down with his ship..

wow, i havent updated in a while! i didnt sleep much last week, handed in on friday and proceeded to attempt to have fun.. but i didnt.

thats all i have to say.

also, im really sick and tired of being messed around by boys. im over it.

your back is begging sweetly for my knives,..

its 1am, and yes, i am up and working again.. 2nd all nighter in a row and im getting fucking cranky..

these two photos are amazing:




.. i dont have courage..

the fall of ideals

saturday afternoons. cigarettes (too many, appearantly). organic coffee with soy milk. yummy vegan food. scarves. comfy shrink's couch. perverse convos. rubic cubes. windhoek beer. white square-toe shoes with spilt coffee on em. drunken horny girls. retarded left feet. dancing like spazzes. blowing kisses. tiaras. middle aged women gyrating. scouting for talent. 4am drives, talking about very very personal shit. and that, my lovelies was

waiting for the lifeless words to come from your mouth..

so, fun WAS had by all last night ;) we went to chris' and it was awesome.. i danced like a spaz as always.. my feet hurt by the end of the night.. then, at about 2am, ryan, candi and i went to red room, which is perhaps where i didnt have as much fun, but oh well.. i got home at 4am and slept like a log til 12..

iv been doing VEGA work, and then i went to dinner with vanja and movies (WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS) - granted, a romantic comedy was NOT what i need right now, it was hilarious.. now im back to working, pulling an all-nighter..

i have realised after this weekend, that although im trying really hard, i cannot, for the life of me, be a bitch.. iv been the nice, naive little girl that always gets used for 22 years, and its never gonna change.. and being a bitch would allow me to never get hurt..

alas, i will ALWAYS be one of the boys, i will always be the girl that the boys will tell about how they pine over the beautiful girls, even said beautiful girls are shallow bitches.. i feel like the girl in EURO TRIP - completly invisible as a girl, and always there for you when you have a problem with a girl..

shot through the heart, and you're to blame, darling, you give love a bad name

i think thursday night was proof not to mess with me and get on my bad side. EVER.. iv always said this and il say it again - im a nice person, but fuck me over and ur in for hell.. thanks to brynn and tal for the help ;)

i was beyond drunk on thursday.. the booze was cheap for me.. jana (a lecturer at vega) kept pouring tequila down everyone's throats.. yeah it was fun..

beer. ciggies. friends. VEGA kids. fucking exes. new scores. dal's car. drunkeness. revenge.

i was hanging like mad the whole of yesterday.. in fact, i think i wokeup still drunk. so i just chilled last night. today i visited a friend and his work and he made me the yummiest vegan food ever, im not sure how i would eat meat again.. tonight is chris' rubic party and fun will be had by all :)