you best be ware - try and test me if you dare!

im in a good mood today :)

all is fine in the land of tina.. i didnt go to college because i hated my ideas.. been working on em today and am liking my idea now :) all i want is coke and chocolate.. im debating going to get some.. am i not too lazy though?

this picture is epic:

what if i told you, that you're a stupid whore..

today was quick.. just a lecture, and then hung out with the kids for a bit.. then kyle and i decided to go to old parks for beer. wow i havent been to that place in like 2 months! so, we drank our beer, smoked our cigarettes and talked loads. i love kyle. and i love nick, jaz and vanja. really, i have the best friends in the world. hands down!

iv always loved this picture..

for our means secure us and our defects prove our worth..

work work work. really, it never ends. i had fun yesterday afternoon, watched CROSSING POINT in studio. then i did work. because i have no life, vega has stolen it. tonight perhaps doors or movies.. or something.. but right now, more work.

im dying for some sleep, but i cant afford to sleep cos i dont have time. caffeine and nicotine are pulsating through my veins. and i feel creative! thats good at least..

its been so awesome driving with vanja to college these past 2 days :)

other than that, its amazing how i have gotten programming my brain down to an art. its taken many years and many sour lessons to get me this way. but im happy with my coldness.. rather that then being hurt 24/7.. this project i have to do for creative development will help further, no doubt?

ok.. im just rambling on. its the lack of sleep..

THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY:

if I live to see you again
i'll take out my eyes
with this I have no way, and in consequence want no sight
i've tried my hardest to forget every connection
always being the blind villain

my end meets the old curse of death

the last courtesy I give
get the horses for your mistress
there is a cliff, with sky high peaks
make your way to the very brim of it
stop it from every showing
repair the misery

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine

with robbers hands, cunning and false
label him a thief, bring him before us
bind fast his corky arms
filthy traitor!

hang him instantly
pluck out his eyes
rip the haunting smirk from his face
may heaven help him, but only through its plagues
for our means secure us
for our means secure us and our defects prove our worth.

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine
we live in fear and danger of them
there delicate cheeks will turn to rotting flesh
one day women will all become monsters

plan B is ready to be sprung into action..

my eyes are shut for now it seems the only way that i can cope..

i have been having weird dreams about going home.. of my gran's town, of my sister's place.. wow, i had the best childhood. and to think i 'turned out like this' (pierced, tatooed and cynical).. i make my mother proud (not)..

yes, i know i have been bitching for ages that i wanna get outta here, and i really do.. i cant wait.. i hate this goddamn place, i feel like a prisoner.. all i see is poverty, crime, racism, and loadshedding.. i feel like im at the edge of the world.. i hate this place. its stupid, and im so sick of this crime and all these people..

i have recently realised that my mother and i will never be close, she will never accept me. and im done trying to be who she wants me to be.. its sad, iv cried about it, iv spend countless hours trying to supress who i am, for her.. but at the end of the day, really, its my life.. i cannot sit and think about how she will take my next tattoo or what i choose to do with my time..

one day women will all become monsters

so whoop-dee-do, im sick again! today is the first day iv felt a lil better, and i desperately wanna go out, even for a quick coffee cos iv been at home for the past 3 days, sleeping!

i keep dreaming about going home.. SO MUCH!! i need to go back..

if I live to see you again
i'll take out my eyes
with this I have no way, and in consequence want no sight
i've tried my hardest to forget every connection
always being the blind villain

my end meets the old curse of death

the last courtesy I give
get the horses for your mistress
there is a cliff, with sky high peaks
make your way to the very brim of it
stop it from every showing
repair the misery

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine

with robbers hands, cunning and false
label him a thief, bring him before us
bind fast his corky arms
filthy traitor!

hang him instantly
pluck out his eyes
rip the haunting smirk from his face
may heaven help him, but only through its plagues
for our means secure us
for our means secure us and our defects prove our worth.

give me your hand
the departure of the thief and monster is far from over
but everything is gonna be just fine
everything will be just fine
we live in fear and danger of them
there delicate cheeks will turn to rotting flesh
one day women will all become monsters

i am finally free..

i have had the most amazing 6 days!

thursday evening, vanja and i went to olive lounge..

friday we went to desmond and the tutus, and then to the suicide kings' album launch..

saturday we went to a wedding and then to cool runnings, and then to red room..

sunday i went to movies with a special someone..

monday, we went to nems house to watch a serbian movie..

and last night, we were all partied out, so we went for dinner at northgate :)